By Daniel Ng Chun Lung
CHING MING FESTIVAL
Goldfish have only seven seconds of memory. 鈥&苍产蝉辫;Chinese myth
i haven鈥檛 been home for a day
and when i return, the goldfish
are dead, all seven of them,
while the survivors hide at the bottom left corner
of the blurred, colloidal tank
with their sight travelling from me
to the rusted golden bodies.
before tomb sweeping in his hometown,
my father didn鈥檛 ask me to take
care of them 鈥 they鈥檒l be fine 鈥
and they鈥檙e now floating
on the surface, capsized.
the liquid crime scene stinks
the flat with a vociferous smell
(maybe i鈥檒l smell the same when i die)
i, the murderer and mortician,
start salvaging the white-eyed tails
into a plastic bag 鈥
each falling fish hammers the transparent hearse,
ripples on the contaminated holy water,
mimics the tempo of my heartbeat 鈥
only one struggles, trying
to position herself upright
i want to end her pain
with a butter knife in my hand,
not knowing where to start for i have
never killed.
she flops amongst the stiff bodies,
sesame eyes fixed upon me, 鈥
why 鈥
a crime scene should never be
the same place as the grave
so i tie a knot, bear their weight,
look at her wriggling tail
and drop them into the graveyard
of atrovirens where trash is abandoned.
i close the lid,
wondering how long she needs to suffocate.
now i have a fresh tomb to sweep.
